|Posted by Benjamin Adams on July 10, 2013 at 7:55 PM|
You spend your childhood being told what to do. "Get up, go to school" Then "Get up, go to college" and maybe you'll make it to "Get up, you're off to university"
You're in education from 5 years old all the way to 21-23 even and all that time you just repeat what others have told you in order to pass a test or complete a piece of coursework, enabling you to proceed to the next level in the education game.
Then when all that education is done you are out in the "real" world. Fending for yourself in a world that is not unlike the Matrix's "Real World" in the sense that it's shit.
I've been in the Real World for 7 years now. Working to pay rent, trying to live my dream in my spare time and for me....that's enough now, if this is all I do for the rest of my days shoot me in the face. I'm not suicidal or anything but is this all there is? really? It's not even because I haven't made it big or anything, just lately it's more of a "why the fuck do I do this?"
Everyday we wake up and do the same shit we do all the time. For me it's "go to work, go home, go do a gig" or sometimes "call in sick for work, do nothing, go do gig" although occasionally "do nothing" will suffice for a description of my days.
Sure there are distractions to the mind numbing boredom that is existence, but all of them have adverts trying to sell me shit. I imagine it's because everyone is bored, they must be. Why else would companies feel the need to bombard us constantly with images of happiness and the product that gets you it.
It all just feels very sinister to me. I can't help but feel an overwhelming sense that everything we know is wrong somehow, like an animal born in captivity that just KNOWS there's more out there.
Perhaps it was a bad idea to take that acid that time. I took the red pill and now all I see is code and each line of code says "bullshit"
Maybe this is the ramblings of a mad man and in years to come i'll blow up a school and the Sun will print this with the headline "Sick Matrix fan took drugs before killing children!!!" and the Guardian will say "Appallingly Written Drivel from Matrix Racist"